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2/20/2001

The Funeral
Chances are, you have no say on what you like or dislike on your own funeral.

I have always been thinking on the music that I would like to listen to - suppose I have the ability - before my departure.

They might sound boring to some of my friends but what the heck, this is something for me, right?

OK, here is my list... Friend, it is no easy task to prepare 10+ hours of music X)

Bruckner #7,
Bach Suite #1-6,
Beethoven #9,
Tchakovsky string quartet #1,
Borodin string quartet,
Barber Adagio,
Rachmaninov Vocalise,
Brahms sym. #4,
Chopin Waltz

What else? Maybe some Jazz. It should be less boring,

John Coltrane Ballade,
Round Midnight,
Some Monks, Bill Evans and Miles Davis will be great.

It might be 30 or maybe even 40 years from now on while I will be listening to music composed about or more than 100 years ago, isn't that interesting?

2/17/2001

Should music just exist on the score?
It's Arts Festival and here's another blog about music...

I have just attended another enjoyable concert tonight - the Emerson Quartet. Programs are all new to me. As usual, we have a chit-chat session right after.

One of the buddy thought they are not in shape tonight, with inaccurate pitch, rushing up of candenza point... he carries on mentioning a couple more musical terms.

I have a question in mind - what is us as an audience are expecting in a performance? Umm... If everything could simply interpretted as what's on the score or maybe I should rephrase as - if the performance is not playing as "it should", should it really be poorly rated?

My thought - I can't read score and know nothing about what the hell those 'candenza counter point' mean but I can experience the strong cohesion, the highly harmonized performance and the fluidity of the music, which I myself as an ametur cellist, know that it is not easy to accomplish. I appreciate that a lot, thank you.

And the most important of all, I am a simple, happy audience. HA!

2/16/2001

You should not just listen to the music..
Legend.

How many times in your life could encounter "A Living Legend"? Not to mention an occasion in meeting 3 at the same time - I am a lucky guy, that I possess such an opportunity.

The Buena Vista Social Club, featuring Ruben Gonalez, the pianist; Ibrahim Ferrer, the vocal; and Omara Portuondo, the "sexy lady" vocal and a bundle of outstanding musician. Even though you are not familiar with their language but through their expression - body language, their accent, the rhythm, as well as the melody of the music itself, can close the gap between you and the musician.

What's more, you are not only receiving the livliness of the music but the heat, the enthusiasm and the momentum bursted from their performance. You have to jump into the music, to be motivated. You can then feel the appreciation of life and the greatness of the music itself.

2/11/2001

Looks through the eyes of a child
I was hugging the little angel tonight, flying her up to the sky. From her eyes, I could see the charm, the interest and the happiness that I am seeking all times. When ages adds up like a counter, the number of times I felt "blown away" diminished like the tide flows back... it's not the world that is changing but our sense to the surrouding fade away.

I keep reminding myself to think different, umm, maybe I should rephrase to, I should break through the barrier...

Something I read recently.... we all have desire, no matter it is the form of livehood, our job or what so ever, indeed, we are always being gifted in a wrong position at the wrong time.. sounds sad, but shouldn't be a better thought to come over it?

Be honest, I don't know what the heck I am currently writing... lines become blur that I can't make up my mind if I am really writing becoz I want to or just becoz I want to show up my little device in a lcoation I enjoy.. jesus.

2/06/2001

When experience sublimes into your memory...
I talk about memory, again.

Sometimes, an event, some kind of food, music or maybe scenery tied to a segment of our memory, something happened in a time frame in the past. Yet, when we get into this same "thing" again, we seems to be getting over it one more time.

Interesting.

Curry rice = an afternoon in Akibuhara with a plate of Curry Rice, an isolated me in a totally unfamilar region. Feels like an outsider; with no one knowing me while I can leave the shit behind.

2/05/2001

Don't feel despair, fortune is right ahead.
Years ago, I used to have a nice pen, yes, those need to refill with the ink cartridge, as my companion in my university study. It's from Rotring.

From years after, I have been looking for the ballpoint pen from the same series - but to no avail... it is no longer

6 years later, in a warm and sunny afternoon. I finished my lunch early, while not having the mood to visit any place I used to, I went to the stationary shop I have never visited. And god bless, my long time lover showed up in sight...


2/03/2001

Life is full of experience...
I have been repeatedly telling you that life is full of interest.. you can always meet something new, something you have never met before in your daiily life.

As long as you know how to figure it out and how to treasure it when you meet them, your life will be fruitful and beautiful...

I have been visiting Johnny's place for years but still, I could locate something new from his "reperiore".. (I don't want to say "menu" as he is serving more than that.) Just like today, I am ordering my all time favourite -- Cafe Latte -- but with a twist of new elements, servi ng it with some fresh cream. And it becomes our new favourite right away.

Life's like a puzzle, if you make your effort in matching every pieces together and you will be rewarded with a beautiful big picture.

1/19/2001

Life is easy and simple..
Listening to the newly bought CD of Stan Getz and writing up a document in the office... feeling relaxed and comfortable. Can you find something else that you could enjoy your life out of it while at the same time could earn some bucks for our living?

There are times that, we are pushing ourselves out of the envelope, just to fulfill the limitless growth of desire. No matter how hard we worked, and then how much we spent on it, we are still feeling "empty". It's not the feeling of lonely but just like when you have eaten a lot of cream, you know that you have eaten a large portion of food but still, you don't have the sense of fullness. Indeed, if you know how to treasure the things out of the ordinary, life will be easier and more enjoyable than you can think.

Maybe this is why kids are always hanging with a smile that you could hardly find from any adults...

1/12/2001

What's possible, what's not
Sometimes, I don't really know what's the limit, or better said, my own capacity in handling things. When tasks were assigned to me, no matter how fully occupied I am, as long as I feel it's ok, I will take it.

Is it me who just don't know how to turn down request or is it me who is stupid that, thinking if I could fullfill all of them, I am of something superior? I don't know.

In what circumstances will U give up on something? How do one justify if it worth keep doing it? Just like Beethoven, someone who is deaf but still could compose music as strong and powerful as an invicible army. Whenever I feel weak and tired, those music are just like adrenaline, like caffiene, to rejuvenate myself. To feel the power, to feel being loved and to believe in myself..

1/05/2001

I got the whole world
A thought came by..

Wandering around in Germany and communicate with the people in german, simple phrase of course. Feels like I got the whole world, ha!

I always believe that people will appreciate the effort you make to speak in their language, no matter how lame it is...

Maybe I enjoy the feeling of being "connected", especially with people of different culture.

1/04/2001

It's just looping over and over again..
I don't know why, but do you find that most of the things, especially those we don't like, keep showing up from time to time? I try to get the hell away from it, still, it just show up after a period of time, just like the sequence of a traffice light. If I could just accept the occurence, I might feel better, but I don't want to. Hey, it's my life, I think I could select what to be like and what not to be...

12/14/2000

Should I be happy, or not?
Kind of muddy... I mean, I don't know if I should feel happy or what... on one hand, have chances to go working abroad, I should feel happy, but now, I have it denied, and I can now stay in HK and enjoy my Christmas, I should be happy but then I missed the chance to work on a big project, I shouldn't be... isn't it a contradiction?

11/27/2000

Another time of the year that I treasure most..
There is a couple of period in a year that I like most and Christmas is certainly on the top of the list.

What's good about Christmas is, you will have a whole month to enjoy, starting from late November, when every shop start decorating or promoting items as Christmas special and your mood in preparing the celebration of Christmas start to grow. And right up to the Christmas Eve, the excitment will be the greatest..

Afterall, we should remember the real reason behind Christmas - to love each one around you.

With peace...
Grown up, but child at heart..
It is good to be young at heart, you can fulfill your desire easily and life will seems to be more cheerful.

I am always looking for toys, no matter if it is a computer game, cool gadget or maybe those souvenir you can get from MacDonald. I feel happy right away. Just like what I felt when I saw the mini car I bought today. When I was young, I like playing remote control car (r/c car), I like the speediness, the beauty it shown while turning at a tight corner, so on so forth... but when I grow older, chances to play r/c car fall...

I have been longing for something which I could play *at home*, and affordable. Finally, my wish is now come true with this little buddy.

The Kyosho MINI-Z racing car series features a number of popular street racers and made them into cars which length is 130mm, about the size of my palm. Though they are small but they run FAST! I can only speed up to half (or maybe 1/3) to what it can perform in order to play safely in my house...

It's just a couple of hundred of bucks and I am already feel like in heaven, isn't it fascinating?

11/21/2000

Wanda, I miss you..
Saw a girl in Central Station whose outlook resembles to the way that Wanda does. A strong desire in seeing her.

Wanda is the younger sister I met during my day in the university.

It is interesting that, at a particular stage of your life, you will have a strong desire in seeing or talking with someone whom you care.

Wanda, I miss you..

11/15/2000

There is always something to cherish..
Life could be boring, if you don't know how to deal with it..

Yet, there is always something sneaking around the corner in our life, awaiting for our exploration. Indeed, we might have ourselves so enclosed in our burden that we are not aware of their existence... ends up feeling frustrated, lonely and sad.

Life is full of fun, interest and excitement, if we could find thost little something around us...

11/07/2000

Can U tell the different?
Can you tell the different between 9:00 and 9:01? Why I am asking is, people are all rushing fiercely in the MTR station, wishing to make themselves get to the office before 9:00 am.. but I am always wondering, is the different in 1 minute, not to mention just a couple of second, is it that important?

This certainly is a generalized statement... I am still someone who is punctual

What I really want to talk about is, we just concentrate on the rules, without understanding why we should follow...

10/29/2000

Winter has come, I suppose...
It's 18:12 but it is dark already. I still remember in seeing sun-set at 7 just a couple of weeks ago, so I suppose it is winter.

Maybe this explain why I felt muddy, becoz it is winter, I suppose...
Where's your wife?
This was what See asked me when I went for my "Sunday latte" this afternoon.

He is not the first one who treat her as my wife (well, will be in one day X)) and he told me that we both smile in the same way and he seldom see any couple who looks like us, who looks really like a couple.

I don't know if it is so, but hey, why don't U send me your "judgement"? X)