The extra-ordinary breakfast
I am talking about "treasuring what you have" again.
This morning, I go by the small resting area - a place just possessing a number of chairs; see an old mister sitting in one of them, showing satisfaction by enjoying his cup of English tea, just bought from the take-away shop.
The more we are able to possess, the more we are demanding. But are we much more happier than before? Not really the case, chances are, we don't know how to enjoy the beauty to the fullest extent, yet, we keep on spending, whinning on what we could only have. Then, we squeeze our time to work more, looking forward to earn more so as to strike for something more decent - more expensive. Yet, we are not satisfy and we whine on it again and we repeat what we have done again... till to a point that we are fed up or we realize that we are performing something not realistic.
Everything around us could be extra-ordinary, including what we already possess, you might be able to dig into something you are not aware...
3/17/2001
3/12/2001
Lost in vision...
"lost in vision"
"feeling in the middle of the foggy day"
"where I am leading myself to?"
"I am alone but I shouldn't feel lonely with so many things that I could accomplished"
These are what have been repeating, repeating and repeating within myself in these 2 days. This is not the first time in muddling myself in such a situation, indeed, I have been grabbing myself out of such chaos for a year or 2.
What is wrong?
Maybe I am feeling insecure, in a sense that I have lost my sight, momentum dropped, like a roller coaster that has been riding for too long and have the screws loosen..
Interrupted...
Somehow, the regular way in refueling myself - hanging around in Johnny's place doesn't seems to work tonight and I just do what as planned; visiting Tom and again, I was proved that miracle is always just around the corner.
Before I made my visit there, I held no hope to regain my momentum. Indeed, once I saw Tom, I made my order on Tansonia Latte and situation started to move a bit..
Friend, maybe I should say friendliness comes in and saved me one more time.
Tom told me a lot on what he saw, he tasted, he was told in his 2 month's of travelling; Vietnam, Cambodia, China, Thailand... from the way he found about those countries, to the cusine he had tried and not to mention the coffee tasting experience. Content is one of the thing that arouse me but the most important above all is I felt "connected" once again. Connected back to the place that where I used to be, just like when the radio hits the right frequency, it hums music rather than noise.
Have I regain my "vision", well, not really BUT I learnt a lesson. It is not necessary to have a clear vision at all times, somehow, we will have occasion to have ourselves let loose. Indeed, we just need to follow the steps, believe it "something" is just around the corner and with just a few more steps, our radio will hit the right frequeny...
"lost in vision"
"feeling in the middle of the foggy day"
"where I am leading myself to?"
"I am alone but I shouldn't feel lonely with so many things that I could accomplished"
These are what have been repeating, repeating and repeating within myself in these 2 days. This is not the first time in muddling myself in such a situation, indeed, I have been grabbing myself out of such chaos for a year or 2.
What is wrong?
Maybe I am feeling insecure, in a sense that I have lost my sight, momentum dropped, like a roller coaster that has been riding for too long and have the screws loosen..
Interrupted...
Somehow, the regular way in refueling myself - hanging around in Johnny's place doesn't seems to work tonight and I just do what as planned; visiting Tom and again, I was proved that miracle is always just around the corner.
Before I made my visit there, I held no hope to regain my momentum. Indeed, once I saw Tom, I made my order on Tansonia Latte and situation started to move a bit..
Friend, maybe I should say friendliness comes in and saved me one more time.
Tom told me a lot on what he saw, he tasted, he was told in his 2 month's of travelling; Vietnam, Cambodia, China, Thailand... from the way he found about those countries, to the cusine he had tried and not to mention the coffee tasting experience. Content is one of the thing that arouse me but the most important above all is I felt "connected" once again. Connected back to the place that where I used to be, just like when the radio hits the right frequency, it hums music rather than noise.
Have I regain my "vision", well, not really BUT I learnt a lesson. It is not necessary to have a clear vision at all times, somehow, we will have occasion to have ourselves let loose. Indeed, we just need to follow the steps, believe it "something" is just around the corner and with just a few more steps, our radio will hit the right frequeny...
3/08/2001
It's all about shoe shining..
No matter the size of a company, shoe shining exist. This is one of the something that I have learnt in the years.
Maybe I should rephrase it as, whenever there are working relationship, chances for seeing a "shoe shining event" rises. I think it is more on personality act, one might be getting too used to be doing so. I can't say this is a sin, one may simply taking this as an "aggressive act" for promotion, yet, I simply don't feel comfortable in seeing this, whenever happened.
What I dislike more is, the difference in between what one will usually stands for against what one will show up when he/she lean on the boss..
Anyhow, as long as I could get away from the happening, I shouldn't be bothered by it..
No matter the size of a company, shoe shining exist. This is one of the something that I have learnt in the years.
Maybe I should rephrase it as, whenever there are working relationship, chances for seeing a "shoe shining event" rises. I think it is more on personality act, one might be getting too used to be doing so. I can't say this is a sin, one may simply taking this as an "aggressive act" for promotion, yet, I simply don't feel comfortable in seeing this, whenever happened.
What I dislike more is, the difference in between what one will usually stands for against what one will show up when he/she lean on the boss..
Anyhow, as long as I could get away from the happening, I shouldn't be bothered by it..
3/07/2001
3/06/2001
Life after a living pattern...
I wake up, go to work, earn money and make my living on a daily basis. But I figure it out that, this is not what I want for life long.
I took "The Vacation" in the year 2000 and this is one of the transition that I talk about from time to time.
On this morning, the desire to roll up my diminishing momentum is growing. The desire to hang out from the routine life-form; the desire to feed myself with knowledges; the desire to look for the inner-self of mine; the desire to put myself into another arena that I am not familiar with.
I need it and I need it badly.
I wake up, go to work, earn money and make my living on a daily basis. But I figure it out that, this is not what I want for life long.
I took "The Vacation" in the year 2000 and this is one of the transition that I talk about from time to time.
On this morning, the desire to roll up my diminishing momentum is growing. The desire to hang out from the routine life-form; the desire to feed myself with knowledges; the desire to look for the inner-self of mine; the desire to put myself into another arena that I am not familiar with.
I need it and I need it badly.
2/21/2001
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2/20/2001
The Funeral
Chances are, you have no say on what you like or dislike on your own funeral.
I have always been thinking on the music that I would like to listen to - suppose I have the ability - before my departure.
They might sound boring to some of my friends but what the heck, this is something for me, right?
OK, here is my list... Friend, it is no easy task to prepare 10+ hours of music X)
Bruckner #7,
Bach Suite #1-6,
Beethoven #9,
Tchakovsky string quartet #1,
Borodin string quartet,
Barber Adagio,
Rachmaninov Vocalise,
Brahms sym. #4,
Chopin Waltz
What else? Maybe some Jazz. It should be less boring,
John Coltrane Ballade,
Round Midnight,
Some Monks, Bill Evans and Miles Davis will be great.
It might be 30 or maybe even 40 years from now on while I will be listening to music composed about or more than 100 years ago, isn't that interesting?
Chances are, you have no say on what you like or dislike on your own funeral.
I have always been thinking on the music that I would like to listen to - suppose I have the ability - before my departure.
They might sound boring to some of my friends but what the heck, this is something for me, right?
OK, here is my list... Friend, it is no easy task to prepare 10+ hours of music X)
Bruckner #7,
Bach Suite #1-6,
Beethoven #9,
Tchakovsky string quartet #1,
Borodin string quartet,
Barber Adagio,
Rachmaninov Vocalise,
Brahms sym. #4,
Chopin Waltz
What else? Maybe some Jazz. It should be less boring,
John Coltrane Ballade,
Round Midnight,
Some Monks, Bill Evans and Miles Davis will be great.
It might be 30 or maybe even 40 years from now on while I will be listening to music composed about or more than 100 years ago, isn't that interesting?
2/17/2001
Should music just exist on the score?
It's Arts Festival and here's another blog about music...
I have just attended another enjoyable concert tonight - the Emerson Quartet. Programs are all new to me. As usual, we have a chit-chat session right after.
One of the buddy thought they are not in shape tonight, with inaccurate pitch, rushing up of candenza point... he carries on mentioning a couple more musical terms.
I have a question in mind - what is us as an audience are expecting in a performance? Umm... If everything could simply interpretted as what's on the score or maybe I should rephrase as - if the performance is not playing as "it should", should it really be poorly rated?
My thought - I can't read score and know nothing about what the hell those 'candenza counter point' mean but I can experience the strong cohesion, the highly harmonized performance and the fluidity of the music, which I myself as an ametur cellist, know that it is not easy to accomplish. I appreciate that a lot, thank you.
And the most important of all, I am a simple, happy audience. HA!
It's Arts Festival and here's another blog about music...
I have just attended another enjoyable concert tonight - the Emerson Quartet. Programs are all new to me. As usual, we have a chit-chat session right after.
One of the buddy thought they are not in shape tonight, with inaccurate pitch, rushing up of candenza point... he carries on mentioning a couple more musical terms.
I have a question in mind - what is us as an audience are expecting in a performance? Umm... If everything could simply interpretted as what's on the score or maybe I should rephrase as - if the performance is not playing as "it should", should it really be poorly rated?
My thought - I can't read score and know nothing about what the hell those 'candenza counter point' mean but I can experience the strong cohesion, the highly harmonized performance and the fluidity of the music, which I myself as an ametur cellist, know that it is not easy to accomplish. I appreciate that a lot, thank you.
And the most important of all, I am a simple, happy audience. HA!
2/16/2001
You should not just listen to the music..
Legend.
How many times in your life could encounter "A Living Legend"? Not to mention an occasion in meeting 3 at the same time - I am a lucky guy, that I possess such an opportunity.
The Buena Vista Social Club, featuring Ruben Gonalez, the pianist; Ibrahim Ferrer, the vocal; and Omara Portuondo, the "sexy lady" vocal and a bundle of outstanding musician. Even though you are not familiar with their language but through their expression - body language, their accent, the rhythm, as well as the melody of the music itself, can close the gap between you and the musician.
What's more, you are not only receiving the livliness of the music but the heat, the enthusiasm and the momentum bursted from their performance. You have to jump into the music, to be motivated. You can then feel the appreciation of life and the greatness of the music itself.
Legend.
How many times in your life could encounter "A Living Legend"? Not to mention an occasion in meeting 3 at the same time - I am a lucky guy, that I possess such an opportunity.
The Buena Vista Social Club, featuring Ruben Gonalez, the pianist; Ibrahim Ferrer, the vocal; and Omara Portuondo, the "sexy lady" vocal and a bundle of outstanding musician. Even though you are not familiar with their language but through their expression - body language, their accent, the rhythm, as well as the melody of the music itself, can close the gap between you and the musician.
What's more, you are not only receiving the livliness of the music but the heat, the enthusiasm and the momentum bursted from their performance. You have to jump into the music, to be motivated. You can then feel the appreciation of life and the greatness of the music itself.
2/11/2001
Looks through the eyes of a child
I was hugging the little angel tonight, flying her up to the sky. From her eyes, I could see the charm, the interest and the happiness that I am seeking all times. When ages adds up like a counter, the number of times I felt "blown away" diminished like the tide flows back... it's not the world that is changing but our sense to the surrouding fade away.
I keep reminding myself to think different, umm, maybe I should rephrase to, I should break through the barrier...
Something I read recently.... we all have desire, no matter it is the form of livehood, our job or what so ever, indeed, we are always being gifted in a wrong position at the wrong time.. sounds sad, but shouldn't be a better thought to come over it?
Be honest, I don't know what the heck I am currently writing... lines become blur that I can't make up my mind if I am really writing becoz I want to or just becoz I want to show up my little device in a lcoation I enjoy.. jesus.
I was hugging the little angel tonight, flying her up to the sky. From her eyes, I could see the charm, the interest and the happiness that I am seeking all times. When ages adds up like a counter, the number of times I felt "blown away" diminished like the tide flows back... it's not the world that is changing but our sense to the surrouding fade away.
I keep reminding myself to think different, umm, maybe I should rephrase to, I should break through the barrier...
Something I read recently.... we all have desire, no matter it is the form of livehood, our job or what so ever, indeed, we are always being gifted in a wrong position at the wrong time.. sounds sad, but shouldn't be a better thought to come over it?
Be honest, I don't know what the heck I am currently writing... lines become blur that I can't make up my mind if I am really writing becoz I want to or just becoz I want to show up my little device in a lcoation I enjoy.. jesus.
2/06/2001
When experience sublimes into your memory...
I talk about memory, again.
Sometimes, an event, some kind of food, music or maybe scenery tied to a segment of our memory, something happened in a time frame in the past. Yet, when we get into this same "thing" again, we seems to be getting over it one more time.
Interesting.
Curry rice = an afternoon in Akibuhara with a plate of Curry Rice, an isolated me in a totally unfamilar region. Feels like an outsider; with no one knowing me while I can leave the shit behind.
I talk about memory, again.
Sometimes, an event, some kind of food, music or maybe scenery tied to a segment of our memory, something happened in a time frame in the past. Yet, when we get into this same "thing" again, we seems to be getting over it one more time.
Interesting.
Curry rice = an afternoon in Akibuhara with a plate of Curry Rice, an isolated me in a totally unfamilar region. Feels like an outsider; with no one knowing me while I can leave the shit behind.
2/05/2001
Don't feel despair, fortune is right ahead.
Years ago, I used to have a nice pen, yes, those need to refill with the ink cartridge, as my companion in my university study. It's from Rotring.
From years after, I have been looking for the ballpoint pen from the same series - but to no avail... it is no longer
6 years later, in a warm and sunny afternoon. I finished my lunch early, while not having the mood to visit any place I used to, I went to the stationary shop I have never visited. And god bless, my long time lover showed up in sight...
Years ago, I used to have a nice pen, yes, those need to refill with the ink cartridge, as my companion in my university study. It's from Rotring.
From years after, I have been looking for the ballpoint pen from the same series - but to no avail... it is no longer
6 years later, in a warm and sunny afternoon. I finished my lunch early, while not having the mood to visit any place I used to, I went to the stationary shop I have never visited. And god bless, my long time lover showed up in sight...
2/03/2001
Life is full of experience...
I have been repeatedly telling you that life is full of interest.. you can always meet something new, something you have never met before in your daiily life.
As long as you know how to figure it out and how to treasure it when you meet them, your life will be fruitful and beautiful...
I have been visiting Johnny's place for years but still, I could locate something new from his "reperiore".. (I don't want to say "menu" as he is serving more than that.) Just like today, I am ordering my all time favourite -- Cafe Latte -- but with a twist of new elements, servi ng it with some fresh cream. And it becomes our new favourite right away.
Life's like a puzzle, if you make your effort in matching every pieces together and you will be rewarded with a beautiful big picture.
I have been repeatedly telling you that life is full of interest.. you can always meet something new, something you have never met before in your daiily life.
As long as you know how to figure it out and how to treasure it when you meet them, your life will be fruitful and beautiful...
I have been visiting Johnny's place for years but still, I could locate something new from his "reperiore".. (I don't want to say "menu" as he is serving more than that.) Just like today, I am ordering my all time favourite -- Cafe Latte -- but with a twist of new elements, servi ng it with some fresh cream. And it becomes our new favourite right away.
Life's like a puzzle, if you make your effort in matching every pieces together and you will be rewarded with a beautiful big picture.
1/19/2001
Life is easy and simple..
Listening to the newly bought CD of Stan Getz and writing up a document in the office... feeling relaxed and comfortable. Can you find something else that you could enjoy your life out of it while at the same time could earn some bucks for our living?
There are times that, we are pushing ourselves out of the envelope, just to fulfill the limitless growth of desire. No matter how hard we worked, and then how much we spent on it, we are still feeling "empty". It's not the feeling of lonely but just like when you have eaten a lot of cream, you know that you have eaten a large portion of food but still, you don't have the sense of fullness. Indeed, if you know how to treasure the things out of the ordinary, life will be easier and more enjoyable than you can think.
Maybe this is why kids are always hanging with a smile that you could hardly find from any adults...
Listening to the newly bought CD of Stan Getz and writing up a document in the office... feeling relaxed and comfortable. Can you find something else that you could enjoy your life out of it while at the same time could earn some bucks for our living?
There are times that, we are pushing ourselves out of the envelope, just to fulfill the limitless growth of desire. No matter how hard we worked, and then how much we spent on it, we are still feeling "empty". It's not the feeling of lonely but just like when you have eaten a lot of cream, you know that you have eaten a large portion of food but still, you don't have the sense of fullness. Indeed, if you know how to treasure the things out of the ordinary, life will be easier and more enjoyable than you can think.
Maybe this is why kids are always hanging with a smile that you could hardly find from any adults...
1/12/2001
What's possible, what's not
Sometimes, I don't really know what's the limit, or better said, my own capacity in handling things. When tasks were assigned to me, no matter how fully occupied I am, as long as I feel it's ok, I will take it.
Is it me who just don't know how to turn down request or is it me who is stupid that, thinking if I could fullfill all of them, I am of something superior? I don't know.
In what circumstances will U give up on something? How do one justify if it worth keep doing it? Just like Beethoven, someone who is deaf but still could compose music as strong and powerful as an invicible army. Whenever I feel weak and tired, those music are just like adrenaline, like caffiene, to rejuvenate myself. To feel the power, to feel being loved and to believe in myself..
Sometimes, I don't really know what's the limit, or better said, my own capacity in handling things. When tasks were assigned to me, no matter how fully occupied I am, as long as I feel it's ok, I will take it.
Is it me who just don't know how to turn down request or is it me who is stupid that, thinking if I could fullfill all of them, I am of something superior? I don't know.
In what circumstances will U give up on something? How do one justify if it worth keep doing it? Just like Beethoven, someone who is deaf but still could compose music as strong and powerful as an invicible army. Whenever I feel weak and tired, those music are just like adrenaline, like caffiene, to rejuvenate myself. To feel the power, to feel being loved and to believe in myself..
1/05/2001
I got the whole world
A thought came by..
Wandering around in Germany and communicate with the people in german, simple phrase of course. Feels like I got the whole world, ha!
I always believe that people will appreciate the effort you make to speak in their language, no matter how lame it is...
Maybe I enjoy the feeling of being "connected", especially with people of different culture.
A thought came by..
Wandering around in Germany and communicate with the people in german, simple phrase of course. Feels like I got the whole world, ha!
I always believe that people will appreciate the effort you make to speak in their language, no matter how lame it is...
Maybe I enjoy the feeling of being "connected", especially with people of different culture.
1/04/2001
It's just looping over and over again..
I don't know why, but do you find that most of the things, especially those we don't like, keep showing up from time to time? I try to get the hell away from it, still, it just show up after a period of time, just like the sequence of a traffice light. If I could just accept the occurence, I might feel better, but I don't want to. Hey, it's my life, I think I could select what to be like and what not to be...
I don't know why, but do you find that most of the things, especially those we don't like, keep showing up from time to time? I try to get the hell away from it, still, it just show up after a period of time, just like the sequence of a traffice light. If I could just accept the occurence, I might feel better, but I don't want to. Hey, it's my life, I think I could select what to be like and what not to be...
12/14/2000
Should I be happy, or not?
Kind of muddy... I mean, I don't know if I should feel happy or what... on one hand, have chances to go working abroad, I should feel happy, but now, I have it denied, and I can now stay in HK and enjoy my Christmas, I should be happy but then I missed the chance to work on a big project, I shouldn't be... isn't it a contradiction?
Kind of muddy... I mean, I don't know if I should feel happy or what... on one hand, have chances to go working abroad, I should feel happy, but now, I have it denied, and I can now stay in HK and enjoy my Christmas, I should be happy but then I missed the chance to work on a big project, I shouldn't be... isn't it a contradiction?
11/27/2000
Another time of the year that I treasure most..
There is a couple of period in a year that I like most and Christmas is certainly on the top of the list.
What's good about Christmas is, you will have a whole month to enjoy, starting from late November, when every shop start decorating or promoting items as Christmas special and your mood in preparing the celebration of Christmas start to grow. And right up to the Christmas Eve, the excitment will be the greatest..
Afterall, we should remember the real reason behind Christmas - to love each one around you.
With peace...
There is a couple of period in a year that I like most and Christmas is certainly on the top of the list.
What's good about Christmas is, you will have a whole month to enjoy, starting from late November, when every shop start decorating or promoting items as Christmas special and your mood in preparing the celebration of Christmas start to grow. And right up to the Christmas Eve, the excitment will be the greatest..
Afterall, we should remember the real reason behind Christmas - to love each one around you.
With peace...
Grown up, but child at heart..
It is good to be young at heart, you can fulfill your desire easily and life will seems to be more cheerful.
I am always looking for toys, no matter if it is a computer game, cool gadget or maybe those souvenir you can get from MacDonald. I feel happy right away. Just like what I felt when I saw the mini car I bought today. When I was young, I like playing remote control car (r/c car), I like the speediness, the beauty it shown while turning at a tight corner, so on so forth... but when I grow older, chances to play r/c car fall...
I have been longing for something which I could play *at home*, and affordable. Finally, my wish is now come true with this little buddy.
The Kyosho MINI-Z racing car series features a number of popular street racers and made them into cars which length is 130mm, about the size of my palm. Though they are small but they run FAST! I can only speed up to half (or maybe 1/3) to what it can perform in order to play safely in my house...
It's just a couple of hundred of bucks and I am already feel like in heaven, isn't it fascinating?
It is good to be young at heart, you can fulfill your desire easily and life will seems to be more cheerful.
I am always looking for toys, no matter if it is a computer game, cool gadget or maybe those souvenir you can get from MacDonald. I feel happy right away. Just like what I felt when I saw the mini car I bought today. When I was young, I like playing remote control car (r/c car), I like the speediness, the beauty it shown while turning at a tight corner, so on so forth... but when I grow older, chances to play r/c car fall...
I have been longing for something which I could play *at home*, and affordable. Finally, my wish is now come true with this little buddy.
The Kyosho MINI-Z racing car series features a number of popular street racers and made them into cars which length is 130mm, about the size of my palm. Though they are small but they run FAST! I can only speed up to half (or maybe 1/3) to what it can perform in order to play safely in my house...
It's just a couple of hundred of bucks and I am already feel like in heaven, isn't it fascinating?
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