The arena which I once was the King is now captured by someone else, he is performing and praise is given.
I am jealous.
And yet, it is myself who has selected to give out the throne but why do I still care about how well the new Emperor is performing?
It is the geek inside who think he can do the same but only better. After all, I still treasure the praise from others.
12/17/2003
The perspective of thinking
It has been discussed for many times - Job Sucks.
I am unhappy in my job, I feel no satisfaction, joy, archivement in my job. I keep feeling the pressure, the tiredness. Anyway, this is not what I am trying to discuss now.
The older I am, the further I found myself away from my closed friend. Our way of thinking starts to depart, my age keeps it's annual increment but the principal of thinking seems diverting to a direction different from people in my same age group. Things that I see it is wrong are looked as they are normal to them. They have the argument that I don't agree with, why it has to be like this, I asked myself.
I am not feeling lonely but I found fewer and fewer people staying in the same channel as I do. One way of seeing it is, more channels are opened (by meeting new friends) and it is difficult to stay in the same channel all the time. But me, umm, I have met new friend too, but my desire to change channel is little.
I have two choices - widen up my boundary and bump into more social life or get used to what I enjoy, staying in within and admit the reality.
I am unhappy in my job, I feel no satisfaction, joy, archivement in my job. I keep feeling the pressure, the tiredness. Anyway, this is not what I am trying to discuss now.
The older I am, the further I found myself away from my closed friend. Our way of thinking starts to depart, my age keeps it's annual increment but the principal of thinking seems diverting to a direction different from people in my same age group. Things that I see it is wrong are looked as they are normal to them. They have the argument that I don't agree with, why it has to be like this, I asked myself.
I am not feeling lonely but I found fewer and fewer people staying in the same channel as I do. One way of seeing it is, more channels are opened (by meeting new friends) and it is difficult to stay in the same channel all the time. But me, umm, I have met new friend too, but my desire to change channel is little.
I have two choices - widen up my boundary and bump into more social life or get used to what I enjoy, staying in within and admit the reality.
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