Individualism

Just get passed my 30 years milestone and something seems to be swirling around. I don't intended to push the switch but I maybe doing it sub-consciously.

I feel myself going back to where I am 10 years ago.

I am not rejuvenating but the once sealed gateway is tearing off bit by bit. The once diverted me is behaving as what I was.

Starting from the journey I went to Taiwan, I am enjoying more and more of my own time. I grab every opportunity that I can, to isolate myself.

I have a question and I need an answer. The way to achive is to think and I need time and isolation in doing so. More and more of my time is being spent in meaningless events -- working in the area / direction that I don't intend to. And the more I have done, the further away I found myself from what I want to be -- uber geek.

I can sense myself compromising on more than I would, I feel helpless. It seems to me that I don't have an alternative.

"Do something you care about", the prophecy said.

I started my dataCapsule and walk blogging project, it helps but I feel tired.. since I simply cannot split myself between here and there.

In 10 years, I will reach another milestone. Time will not wait for anyone and decision has to be made in every moment. In a fiercely flowing stream, I have to concentrate and make sure I am going to where I want.