Where the fun has gone

The happy time, the excited moment, which I once has found and expierenced, has now gone to nowhere.

I had fun with the experinment, just about a month ago, but now, I simply don't have the initiative to work on it, I can no longer see the fun behind.

The nature of the experinment is interesting as still, just that I am dragged back to the same chaos before. When I am in the mildst of the torture, I have lost my energy and momentum to do anything.

Also, I don't know how to rest well.

This whind up to a complete mess.. unless I either found the solution or can get the hell out of it.