無論是自己，又或是身邊的朋友。做每一個決定時，都思前想後，怕顧此失彼，因而墮入了「想得太多」的境地。
每當我遇到如此困局，我都會想起在「普羅」的一個經歴。當我如常般去享用鄭先生的「卡布」時，我覺得跟以往的有所不同。正當我苦苦思索，是因為我之前吃過甚麼東西，又或是老闆的沖煮方法有所不同。鄭先生不慌不忙的說，「寶文，是你想得太多了」。的確，在我們的一生中，並不是有那麼的事宜需要我們如此思索的。再者，很小結果是致命的。我們真的需要如此費神嗎？
另外一件令我對「想得太多」有所體會的，是兒時看「忍者小靈精」時的一個片段。話說忍術中有一門「推理」之術，可憑籍觀察一件事情的發生，而推敲到接著將會怎樣。「小靈精」跟「甘麥基」以老師的午餐作對決，他們見老師的便當是「竹筍飯」，便估計老師需要牙簽（因竹筍有很多纖維）。之後，他們相繼預備了各種東西，比方說熱茶（可消滯），以至到最後的床墊（飯後有睡意），最終老師把兩人責罵了一頓。有時，我們的「關心」，其實是別人的負擔。
唯有緊記「適時而生，順時而死」的這個大道理，不要把自己困在死胡同內。
11/20/2007
9/24/2007
Anything to hide?
"I gonna die if my wife know where my Facebook is", my friend told me one day. I have no idea what's inside, but this intringues me to think, how much secret do we posses, and how are we going to deal with it? Do u have anything that need to hide up?
I certainly have secret (don't ask me what it is, my dear, I should have told u if I could), but there are not much. Namely becoz I find it difficult to hide as the desire to speak up, and share, is simply irresistible. Most of the "secret" we thought, is not really a secret. What I mean is, you usually just want to hide it up from someone, not everyone around you.
Also, the "secret" is usually not something immoral. Have you seen the movie "Shall we dance"? Koji Yakusho (or Richard Gere, depends on the version you are seeing), is married. But every day after work, he doesn't head home but go to learn waltz dancing. What's more, he even practice alone in the park. Dancing is a very normal activity, but he simply want to hide it up from his wife.
You have an urge to speak it out. So you make yourself at ease by telling everyone except the one you want to hide it from. But what if you want a higher level of secrecy? You put it up as a blog! Just like people throwing a bottle with a message to the sea! Longing for the "someone" to find your blog (or bottle) and read your line, then give you a word or two to sooth the pain.
Thank you for soothing my pain, I hope my friend (and his wife) will not find this piece of blog. :)
Happy hiding.
I certainly have secret (don't ask me what it is, my dear, I should have told u if I could), but there are not much. Namely becoz I find it difficult to hide as the desire to speak up, and share, is simply irresistible. Most of the "secret" we thought, is not really a secret. What I mean is, you usually just want to hide it up from someone, not everyone around you.
Also, the "secret" is usually not something immoral. Have you seen the movie "Shall we dance"? Koji Yakusho (or Richard Gere, depends on the version you are seeing), is married. But every day after work, he doesn't head home but go to learn waltz dancing. What's more, he even practice alone in the park. Dancing is a very normal activity, but he simply want to hide it up from his wife.
You have an urge to speak it out. So you make yourself at ease by telling everyone except the one you want to hide it from. But what if you want a higher level of secrecy? You put it up as a blog! Just like people throwing a bottle with a message to the sea! Longing for the "someone" to find your blog (or bottle) and read your line, then give you a word or two to sooth the pain.
Thank you for soothing my pain, I hope my friend (and his wife) will not find this piece of blog. :)
Happy hiding.
6/20/2007
Live with it
Tonight is special, being alone, reserving all the time for myself. But, instead of feeling happy, I am feeling stupid.
I come up to China in attending an event that will be started tomorrow, I have all the time in the world, but I don't know how to spend. I have to admit that it is partly because of the mis-arrangement of the event but what about if it isn't? I may still doing nothing in the room.
Ever since the registration, I find myself very poor in organizing this kind of matter. I worried a lot (will I get my things stolen? Will my registration get through? Will I .....), I am slow to response when shit happens, too. Especially when it comes to cultural difference, I need time to adapt.
I have already learnt a couple of things. When you have try out the possibilities, live with the consequence. if you won't die from the consequence, just forget about the happening. You will regret in the time that has been wasted.
Anyway, I hope the event will be fun, especially when I can see so many big brothers in the OSS world. Have fun, there's nothing I can loose (ok, maybe my money, my belongings, opps I worried again).
I come up to China in attending an event that will be started tomorrow, I have all the time in the world, but I don't know how to spend. I have to admit that it is partly because of the mis-arrangement of the event but what about if it isn't? I may still doing nothing in the room.
Ever since the registration, I find myself very poor in organizing this kind of matter. I worried a lot (will I get my things stolen? Will my registration get through? Will I .....), I am slow to response when shit happens, too. Especially when it comes to cultural difference, I need time to adapt.
I have already learnt a couple of things. When you have try out the possibilities, live with the consequence. if you won't die from the consequence, just forget about the happening. You will regret in the time that has been wasted.
Anyway, I hope the event will be fun, especially when I can see so many big brothers in the OSS world. Have fun, there's nothing I can loose (ok, maybe my money, my belongings, opps I worried again).
5/17/2007
Happiness
Happiness is here and now, I have dropped my worries.
Nowhere to go, nothing to do, no longer in a hurry.
Happiness is here and now, I have dropped my worries.
Somewhere to go, something to do, but not in a hurry.
That's not what I said, but from Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh (一行禪師).
"Here and now", is not a statement, but a realization. We realize it through our breathe, we free ourselves from the prison of the past, and no going to worry about the unknown future. We treasure the present moment, no matter how minute it is. The cup of tea we sip, is a gift from the cosmos, nourish the leaves and finally given to our cup.
We don't need a visa, or to be dead in entering the buddah land, or the heaven if you believe in God. We can enjoy our wonderful moment here and now.
Nowhere to go, nothing to do, no longer in a hurry.
Happiness is here and now, I have dropped my worries.
Somewhere to go, something to do, but not in a hurry.
That's not what I said, but from Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh (一行禪師).
"Here and now", is not a statement, but a realization. We realize it through our breathe, we free ourselves from the prison of the past, and no going to worry about the unknown future. We treasure the present moment, no matter how minute it is. The cup of tea we sip, is a gift from the cosmos, nourish the leaves and finally given to our cup.
We don't need a visa, or to be dead in entering the buddah land, or the heaven if you believe in God. We can enjoy our wonderful moment here and now.
5/07/2007
It's the passion that counts
I love to watch soccer match, but I don't have much chances until I have Cable TV installed when I moved in to this new flat (since 3 years ago, that is). Since then, I spent some of the time over the weekend in watching matches of the England Premiership, and I noticed that Chelsea is the team I love.
Why though, you said?
Excitement? Sometimes ...
But team spirit and the passion from the players intrigued me most. It drops a bit in this season but I got the emotion back (on why I love this team) tonight.
Long story short - they have to win tonight if they want to keep the possibility of winning the trophy. But they are already one score behind, with one man dismissed before first half.
The situation is tough, real tough. But the keyman, JT, shows his leadership right away. He show his influences to his teammate by action - running all around and given lethal strike. Everyone in the team are motivated and you can hardly noticed that they are the side with one man less. The effect magnifies when they strike the balance and they go all for it until the very last seconds. Sadly, the ball didn't get into the net for the second time.
Whistle blowed and I thought all is over. But JM step right into the field, shake hands with everyone, including players from the other team. And he headed straight to the podium. I was dumb founded but noticed that the quarter are filled up with fans of Chelsea. He ask them to applause, certainly not to himself but diverted it all to his boys. JT follows behind and throw his tee up to the supporter, with the rest follows.
The whole scenario is very moving. JM hug his boys and I can feel the team spirit of the blues.
Although you failed, you tried whatever it takes.
Why though, you said?
Excitement? Sometimes ...
But team spirit and the passion from the players intrigued me most. It drops a bit in this season but I got the emotion back (on why I love this team) tonight.
Long story short - they have to win tonight if they want to keep the possibility of winning the trophy. But they are already one score behind, with one man dismissed before first half.
The situation is tough, real tough. But the keyman, JT, shows his leadership right away. He show his influences to his teammate by action - running all around and given lethal strike. Everyone in the team are motivated and you can hardly noticed that they are the side with one man less. The effect magnifies when they strike the balance and they go all for it until the very last seconds. Sadly, the ball didn't get into the net for the second time.
Whistle blowed and I thought all is over. But JM step right into the field, shake hands with everyone, including players from the other team. And he headed straight to the podium. I was dumb founded but noticed that the quarter are filled up with fans of Chelsea. He ask them to applause, certainly not to himself but diverted it all to his boys. JT follows behind and throw his tee up to the supporter, with the rest follows.
The whole scenario is very moving. JM hug his boys and I can feel the team spirit of the blues.
Although you failed, you tried whatever it takes.
4/11/2007
I want to ...
I want to know myself.
I want to be myself.
I want to be happy.
I want to be honest.
I want to be fair.
I want to be free.
I want to breath.
I want to put down.
I want to ...
After all, I just want to be an atom in the Nature. Like water in the river.
I want to be myself.
I want to be happy.
I want to be honest.
I want to be fair.
I want to be free.
I want to breath.
I want to put down.
I want to ...
After all, I just want to be an atom in the Nature. Like water in the river.
4/06/2007
Reminder
I am not feeling well since Tuesday, having a slight fever and gastroenteritis (intestine inflammation in layman terms). I have to sleep for hours and is only feeling better till today.
But the weakness, not capable to focus on anything and also the aches are all a reminder, or an alerm. It reminds me I have to take good care of my body, or I will not be able to do anything I desire. What's more, it is a lesson to me, reminding how much dad had suffered over the course. I had only suffered for two or three days and is already frustrated. I can't imagine what would it be like for the whole year. Not to mention the degree of suffering.
To everyone, being healthy is a blessing, embrace what you have. And think from the perspective of the patient. Spare your patience and love, and when you are feeling annoyed, just remember how you feel when you are sick and sleeping helplessly on the bed.
But the weakness, not capable to focus on anything and also the aches are all a reminder, or an alerm. It reminds me I have to take good care of my body, or I will not be able to do anything I desire. What's more, it is a lesson to me, reminding how much dad had suffered over the course. I had only suffered for two or three days and is already frustrated. I can't imagine what would it be like for the whole year. Not to mention the degree of suffering.
To everyone, being healthy is a blessing, embrace what you have. And think from the perspective of the patient. Spare your patience and love, and when you are feeling annoyed, just remember how you feel when you are sick and sleeping helplessly on the bed.
3/28/2007
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